Skip to main content

White Noise

 https://draxe.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/04/WhiteNoise-02.jpg

I hear things that aren't there. Shouldn't be there. I hear them in the quiet noises. The liminal noises. The background hum.

The drone of a steady fan. A washing machine, humming and whooshing about its work. The blood rushing around my system when I wear earplugs.

It's like a radio, but the sounds are just far enough out of reach that I can't quite tell what's being said.

I know I recognise that music though

And those voices. So familiar.

Sometimes I think I hear them say my name.

I made a plan. I'm meditating. I'm putting the fan on, the one that brings the voices closest, and I'm focusing on it, shutting everything else out.

And it's working.

Every night, I get a little bit closer. Or I did. The snatches of music and voices are agonisingly still just out of reach and I'm stuck in place. I can't get to them.

But they're definitely saying my name.

So I bought a white noise machine, and I've set it up with the fan. It's a bit of a racket, but once I get the levels and positioning right, it's actually quite wonderful. This will get me there. I know it will.

It is! It's doing it! I can hear the music, the voices. They're so happy to finally be able to talk to me! They're reaching out from…another dimension? Huh. That matches some of my theories, sure.

Why me? I asked that first. They said I'm unusually receptive, and they've been trying to bring me to them for ages. Since I was young.

No wonder it all sounds so familiar.

They have a job for me. And if I do it, I'll be able to join them. I'll be one of them.

They're the ruling class of their dimension, and I'm…a nothing, here. Nobody. No family, no friends, and I do my job from home and only ever speak to people by email or messenger. Maybe the baristas down the road might notice I stopped coming in. That'll be all.

And I could be…something. Something better. Something more. Just…anything but what I am now.

All I have to do is draw some things in my blood on the wall, some weird picture type things, and open the door for them.

Then I'll be somebody.

Here goes! 

---

Credits

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

A Wish Come True (A Short Story)

I woke up with a start when I found myself in a very unfamiliar place. The bed I was lying on was grand—an English-quilting blanket and 2 soft pillows with flowery laces. The whole place was fit for a king! Suddenly the door opened and there stood my dream prince: Katsuya Kimura! I gasped in astonishment for he was actually a cartoon character. I did not know that he really exist. “Wake up, dear,” he said and pulled off the blanket and handed it to a woman who looked like the maid. “You will be late for work.” “Work?” I asked. “Yes! Work! Have you forgotten your own comic workhouse, baby dear?” Comic workhouse?! I…I have became a cartoonist? That was my wildest dreams! Being a cartoonist! I undressed and changed into my beige T-shirt and black trousers at once and hurriedly finished my breakfast. Katsuya drove me to the workhouse. My, my, was it big! I’ve never seen a bigger place than this! Katsuya kissed me and said, “See you at four, OK, baby?” I blushed scarlet. I always wan...
Post a Comment
Read more

Hans and Hilda

Once upon a time there was an old miller who had two children who were twins. The boy-twin was named Hans, and he was very greedy. The girl-twin was named Hilda, and she was very lazy. Hans and Hilda had no mother, because she died whilst giving birth to their third sibling, named Engel, who had been sent away to live wtih the gypsies. Hans and Hilda were never allowed out of the mill, even when the miller went away to the market. One day, Hans was especially greedy and Hilda was especially lazy, and the old miller wept with anger as he locked them in the cellar, to teach them to be good. "Let us try to escape and live with the gypsies," said Hans, and Hilda agreed. While they were looking for a way out, a Big Brown Rat came out from behind the log pile. "I will help you escape and show you the way to the gypsies' campl," said the Big Brown Rat, "if you bring me all your father's grain." So Hans and Hilda waited until their father let them out, ...
2 comments
Read more

I've Learned...

Written by Andy Rooney, a man who had the gift of saying so much with so few words. Rooney used to be on 60 Minutes TV show. I've learned.... That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person. I've learned.... That when you're in love, it shows. I've learned .... That just one person saying to me, 'You've made my day!' makes my day. I've learned.... That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world. I've learned.... That being kind is more important than being right. I've learned.... That you should never say no to a gift from a child. I've learned.... That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in any other way. I've learned.... That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with. I've learned.... That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand. I...
Post a Comment
Read more