Janphen still hasn't showed up to pick me up to school today, so here goes another day without school.
Momma just yelled at me for not going to school again. I told her to fuck off.
I told her if she loved school so much, she should just go herself and take over my place.
She just said "Shit" and left me at that.
Good riddance. Why is she always on my case is beyond me. Well, actually she's always on my case, but these few days it was more than usual.
If it weren't for the fact that I'm still a minor and can't really hold my own until I actually get a job to survive, I would've moved out of my home and hit the road already.
Dammit, she may be my Momma and all, but dammit, I hate her.
And God knows she hates me too. I just know it in my gut instincts ever since the first time I heard her blaming me for being who I am and blaming me for Pops' disappearance.
I think maybe tonight I'll go visit Janphen to see why didn't he show up today and yesterday for school. Not that I want to go back to school or anything, but I have to if I wanna get Momma off my case.
I know what you're thinking. Why can't I just go by my own? Why must I be with Janphen?
Well, it's because only with Janphen around will I be able to function properly in school. He is the only person who will keep me sane in school. Without him, I'd be a wreck. I'd probably be suspended before I even set foot into the building.
Trust me, I tried.
I tried going to school alone without Janphen for a change when he was down with the flu.
It didn't end well.
Even Momma was terrified of me for a while and didn't want to show her face in public for a whole month after what I did, which made her lash out at me more on how it was my fault Pops left when she went on her binge again.
You don't wanna know what I did in school when Janphen wasn't around.
Trust me. It's not pretty.
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