La Nouche's Dream Journal-Chp 38

• I remember being back at my old home in the apartment

• I think I was yelling at my mom

• She was scolding me as usual and I was yelling back at her

• I think she was scolding me about me doing my drawings and want me to stop but I refuse

• She threatened to take my drawings to look at it or throw it away but I grabbed onto it tight

• She demanded for it and I put up a fight

• Then it progressed to wanting to throw my stuff away but I protected them vehemently, saying that they belonged to me and she has no right to touch them

• Weirdly there were ppl in the room, watching us argue our heads off but they just watched but not do anything

• I pushed my mom away and she fell to the floor

• One of them tried to pick her up but she refused them

• We had a yelling match again as she tries to dump my stuff in which I wrestled it back from her

• She said why can't I be the filial child like everybody else

• I replied to her that I've tried my best but she wasn't giving me a chance

• Then I concluded that her violence was an addiction, that she was a sadist and she wanted to abuse me because it gives her the high she wants

• I remember throwing things at her, including throwing a bottle of pepper at her head, dunno why

• I remember the last straw was throwing her out of the window or something

• I woke up for a while but when I went back to bed, she wasn't there anymore and I am with familiar ppl

• I was cleaning up the mess, throwing unwanted things into plastic bags

• Then I remember being in an arcade with Joe

• Joe saw his friend and gave me some money to buy tokens while he chat with him

• I get the tokens and tried out a new DDR game

• This DDR game machine is new with no dance pads but a lot of levers and steps like from either a piano or a reload gun game

• I entered the token and started playing

• I did the character selection byt stepping down on one of the levers slowly because if I step down too much I'll end up to the level where we'll be selecting songs

• Oddly, the character looks like something from Halloween, or more like scarecrow or pumpkin head or something

• I selected wrongly for 2 char play

• The song was in random, but mostly Chinese songs oddly and displayed like karaoke instead of my char selection

• Then I have to play the DDR by stepping and pulling levers and stomp on the steps at the right given moment

• Because I selected the 2 char play, I was having a hard time keeping up but I'm more or less playing it

• Ppl start to gather round in seats clapping and cheering

• It seems like I'm the only one who attempted to play this DDR and they were impressed

• But almost to the final stage, the machine went haywire and hanged

• I had to stop playing but at least I had fun

• I looked for Joe and went on our way