Thursday, August 31, 2023

Doctor Winters Forgetfulness Clinic: In the Cow Shed

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“Have a seat, Mr Costner. What brings you into the clinic today?”

William Costner didn’t appear to be a man who was used to looking so unsure of himself. He was a burly man in his late forties, and Dr. Winter could see the scars on his hands from a life spent working. As he sat there in his plaid work shirt and wrangler jeans, she thought he looked a little like Burt Reynolds, though definitely less handsome and more plain faced. She had done her research, she knew that Mr. Costner owned a large ranch between Cashmere and Gainesville. She also knew that he supplied a lot of beef to the area, meaning his was not some small-scale operation. His bill had been paid with a check, and he hadn’t put down an insurance company, though she knew he had one. He had chosen to come to her instead of going to a therapist in his hometown. Mr. Costner was afraid that people would talk if they knew he had seen a “head shrinker” or whatever he called her in his head.

Despite this, he had still come to see her, so it must have been important.

“I dunno,” he said, “Maybe nothin. I saw somethin and it kinda stuck with me. I need it gone, and they say you’re good at that.”

Dr. Pamela Winter nodded, rising to get him some tea, “I am very good at what I do. Won't you have some tea? I find it helps people relax and come to the heart of the problem.”

She held the cup out for him, but he hesitated before he took it.

“It doesn’t have nothin weird in it, does it?”

Dr. Winter smiled, “It's ginseng, winter cherry, and all natural ingredients.”

He took it, and as the steam hit his nose, she saw him waggle his mustache a little. He took a sip, and closed his eyes as the mmmm wafted out from between his pursed lips. This was a man who clearly took his tea sweet and in a glass. Something like this would be exotic, a treat for his less refined pallet. It would also be the in that Winter needed.

“So,” she said, returning to her seat, “tell me about what you’d like to forget.”

He looked into the tea, seeming unsure how to start.

“I think, no, I KNOW that something attacked me in the barn, and I’m afraid it might come back again.”

* * * * * *

I’ve been a rancher my whole life. My father was a rancher, my Grandfather was a rancher, and his grandfather had been a stock lineman who was extremely knowledgeable when it came to breeding cows and horses. Much like my forebears, I’m a simple man who doesn’t put a lot of stock in strange things. I ride the fence line everyday to make sure that my grazing land is clear of breaks. I take my cows in when it’s cold and let them stay in the field when it’s warm. I know when to start looking for new calves and could pretty well tell you exactly when one is going to drop one. I’m a God fearing man, a patriot who gladly served in The Gulf War, and my neighbors will tell you I’m as reliable and sturdy as the fence posts around my graze land.

So when one of my cows came up dead one morning, her neck oozing blood, I was a little perplexed.

“Whatcha reckon did it?” Randy asked as he and Jake stood on either side of the dead creature.

Jake and Randy have been my farm hands for the last five years, and they’ve helped me with a lot of things in that time.

This was definitely one of the stranger tasks I had asked them for help with.

By her marking, I thought this might be Clementine. She was a good breeding cow, a good producer when it came to milk, and just as dead regardless. I had seen dead cows before, of course. It wasn’t uncommon for animals to come and harry the herd, but they usually didn’t do it like this. Hell, it had been years since a cow had been killed by some varment at all. The last time had been a coyote pack that had gotten a little bigger than expected, and the game warden had finally had to put together a posey to smoke them out before they started killing people.

The puncture wounds on her neck, though, made me think this was no coyote pack.

“Not sure,” I responded, bending down to look at the wound.

It was nothing more than a pair of pinpricks, but they happened to be straight into the jugular vein.

“Maybe it was one of those chupacabras,” Jake joked, Randy snorting as he shook his head.

“Yeah, sure. Little bugger came all the way from Mexico just to taste our fine Georgia beef.”

I turned as the hazard sirens beeped, seeing George backing up the flatbed towards the body. The noise drowned out the farm hands as they joked about different boogins that might have come out of the woods to eat poor ole Clementine and I was glad. I didn’t believe in any of that nonsense, the truth likely being worse. The truth was that it was probably some weirdo, or a group of weirdos, who liked to mutilate livestock and I would have to be on guard for the next few nights to see if they came back.

“Quit flapping your gums, boys, and let's get Clem out of the pasture.”

Both hopped too and with the help of a chain and the winch in the back of the truck, we soon had her laying on the black metal bed.

She almost looked like she was sleeping, and it was easy to forget she was dead until you looked for the rise and fall of her chest.

“Bring her into the barn,” I told George, drawing some looks from the other two.

“You’re not gonna butcher her,” Jake said skeptically, “She’s been in the sun all morning and that meat is likely,”

“No, I wanna have a look at her wounds. If some animal did this, then there should be a sign. If someone did this, as I suspect, then there will be a very different sign. You and Randy go see to the cows while I have a look at poor Clem.” I said, and the young man snapped a salute as he went off to handle the livestock.

I shook my head as the pair swaggered off.

Had I ever been that full of himself? That drunk off my own existence? I suspected that I had once, but who could remember that far back?

I climbed into the passenger seat of the flatbed and rode with George as we headed for the biggest of the three barns.

“So what do you reckon happened, boss?” George asked, wheeling out of the cow pasture with practiced ease.

I liked my regular hands just fine, despite Jake and Randy being young enough to be my kids. Jake was a good stockman, having an eye for cow flesh despite his age, and Randy was my go to man for breaking horses. George, however, was the most sensible of the three and usually handled the numbers and the equipment for the farm. I had started letting the kid keep the books for the place too, and it was amazing to see what he could do with that degree in accounting.

“I reckon people happened.” I answered solemnly.

George looked at me uncertainly, “You think someone around here did that?”

“I hope so,” I said as we pulled into the cool enclosure of the barn, “cause otherwise something bit her and sucked her dry while she just stood there.”

I climbed out of the truck and went to look at the poor dead Clementine. She had a pair of perfect punctures on her neck and the skin around the wound was stained a deep red. Whatever had done this had drained her blood, and the lack of any on the ground made me think they had taken it with them. Why would they do that? Because they were crazy, I thought. They were Satanists or Witches or something else I didn’t know and they had taken the cows blood to do something unnatural with it.

I wasn’t quite sure I wanted to know why they had needed it, but I needed to know why there hadn’t been more than a few spatters on the grass under her.

“I don’t understand how they could drain a whole cow with just two little holes.” George said, looking over my shoulder.

“How do you know they got the whole cow?” I asked, having come to the same conclusion but wanting to know why he thought so.

“Look at the skin, the discoloration. She’s been drained out, but I just don’t understand how. Draining a cow like this would have taken days. How did they accomplish it so quickly?”

I nodded at his assessment, taking a knife from a nearby bench and returning to the corpse to confirm my suspicions. I ran it along the cow's stomach, the abdomen opening slowly as the guts slid out. Not a drop of blood came with them. The organs looked oddly shriveled, oddly drawn up, but still no blood came. I shook my head, making a few other cuts but getting the same results.

“I don’t know,” I responded as George shook his head, “but they were very thorough. Take her off the east field, George. Put her as close to the woods as you can get her. The sooner she’s off the property, the better.”

I watched as the flatbed rolled away, not sure what to make of all of this.

The sight of the bloodless cow would haunt me for the rest of the day, and that was why I was awake that night as my wife snored beside me.

It had been a long day with no answers and I doubted I would ever discover what had done this to Clementine. The ceiling certainly offered none as I lay staring at the popcorn ridges that hung up there. I yawned as my tired eyes begged for reprieve. Someone had killed one of my cows, drained her dry while I lay asleep, and I knew that it might very well happen again. How could people have done that? I knew what it looked like, I wasn’t blind to the punctures that had gone right into the jugular vein, but it was impossible to imagine something like that existing.

Stuff like that was for horror movies, not for real life.

I yawned again, just starting to let my eyes shut as the soft noises of my wife’s snores lulled me to sleep, when I heard the harsh sound of a cow in distress.

It cut across my sleep like a razor, and my eyes popped open as I slid quickly out of bed.

I considered getting dressed, but decided against it pretty quickly. I needed to be quick if I was going to catch them. I grabbed my shotgun and headed out into the night, my pajama pants clinging to me as my bare chest prickled in the slight chill of early morning. I was heading for the milk shed, but when I heard the sound again, I turned my attention to the third and smallest of the sheds, the birthing shed. When I catch the cows in time, I like to put them in there to calf so that I don’t lose one to varements or the cold by accident. At the moment I had three cows in there ready to calf, and whatever was killing them had decided that this was the best spot to find a weak target.

I came into the shed, gun barrels leading the way, and nearly dropped it on the chaff.

What I saw haunts me even now.

It was a woman!

She was dressed in a sheer black thing, her raven hair billowing behind her, and her pale skin nearly glistened in the moonlight coming through the nearby window. It wasn’t her skin that filled me with dread, however. Her jaw was open and unhinged like a snake. Her face was strangely elongated by this action, and she had four fangs the size of pencils jutting from her jaw. Her red eyes had turned to look at me, and I saw the blood falling to the floor as Gertrude bawwed pitifully. She turned back to the cow and wrapped her mouth around the wound, drinking the blood as it oozed out. There was a shivering new calf on the ground beneath her, and Gertrude seemed to be trying to protect it even as her blood dribbled into the mouth of this haunting creature.

I lifted the gun, pointing it at the woman, and told her to get the hell away from my cow.

She hissed at me, sending more blood to the hay, and when she bent towards me, I’m not ashamed to say that I cowered away from her. I lifted the gun, preparing to fire, but as she loomed over me with her strange mouth opened wide, she suddenly seemed unsure of herself. She pulled back, closing her eyes as she tried to stop herself before she struck me, and then bent like a shadow on the side of a house as she folded out the open door.

I sat for a count of five, trying to get myself under control, before I could get enough strength in my legs to go help Gertrude.

I got some pressure on the wound, and as it started to clot, I heard the cow baww quietly again. I sat there in the shed and held pressure on her neck until I was sure she wouldn't bleed to death, and then I rushed to the big barn and got the first aid kit so I could clean and cover the wound. Gertrude didn’t like that much, but she allowed it, and as I watched her care for her new calf, I finally breathed a sigh of relief.

That was a few weeks ago, and the strange woman hasn’t been back since.

Not in the flesh, anyway.

When I sleep, I dream of her terrible face and frightening presence. I awake screaming some nights, but I cannot tell my wife why. Better to keep the burden with me forever then let it infect her too, though it threatened to haunt me forever.

* * * * *

He leaned forward then, making a glooping sound as he pushed the black lump out of his throat.

As he sat quietly, Doctor Winter took the cup and poured the lump into a jar as she always did. She set it with the others in there, and as she washed the cup, she thought about what the farmer had told her. Black hair, pale skin, red eyes.

Curious, very curious.

Mr. Costner shook his head like a dog as he came out of it, looking around as if he wasn’t sure where he was.

“Did it work?” he asked, though by the sound of it, he wasn’t sure what it was.

“Yes, sir. I don’t think those pesky nightmares will bother you anymore. I’d like to ask, Mr. Costner, could you use a good dog for your farm?”

The man cocked his head, “Well, yes actually. I recently had one of my younger ones die when a cow kicked him and I was hoping to replace him with something a little bigger.”

Doctor Winter wrote down an address and the name of a client she knew would appreciate the business, “Talk to this man and tell him I sent you. I think your nighttime worries will be a thing of the past with one of his dogs watching over your property.”

Mr. Costner nodded, thanking her as he left.

Pamela waved as he headed for the reception desk, letting the door close behind him as she reached for her cellphone.

Marguerite picked up on the third ring.

“ ‘ello my dear. Eis everything okay?”

Pamela smiled, she loved the way Maggy talked.

“I heard through the grapevine that you paid a visit to the Costner Ranch a few weeks ago.”

Marguerite laughed and it sounded merry, “You must ‘ave been talking to that farmer I nearly ate.”

“I managed to make him forget, but he’s going to talk to Sinclair about getting one of his hybrid beasts.”

Maggy scoffed like a moody teen, “I was not planning to return after being caught.”

“I don’t understand why you can’t just eat deer like the vampires in those novels you love so much do.” Winter said, taking a seat on the still warm couch.

“Ugh, this may work for the Cullens, but the deer is so gamey. His cows were raised with love, and they tasted delicious.”

She sounded like she was salivating as she remembered it.

“It’s the third one this year, Maggy. I appreciate the business, but you have to be more careful. I don’t know what I’d do if something happened to you.”

“Fear not, mon cher, I am harder to kill than that.”

Winter smiled, “I should hope so. Will I see you for dinner tonight?”

“I wouldn’t miss our date night for the world. See you then, love.”

Winter hung up and got herself in order before her next client came in.

God forbid they see the slight color in her cheeks and think she was human after all. 

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Doctor Winters Forgetfulness Clinic: The Drink Took Him

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“I just don’t think I can live with this. I need it gone, or it’ll drive me to drink.”

Dr. Winter tapped the edge of a spoon against the tea cup, and the sound it made was like a clarion bell. She brought the cup over to the man sitting across from her, taking him in with a study to glance. He was different from her usual clientele. The man looked as if his demons were far behind him, all save this one thing he couldn’t quite exercise. He wore a crisp, white button up shirt, was clean shaven, and looked as though he had a handle on his life. He looked as though he ran most mornings, perhaps hit the gym for more than three months out of the year, and other than his eyes, which roved like a scared horses, he seemed very well put together.

That was likely a smoke screen for the problems that lay beneath surface, however.

“What seems to be the problem, Mr. Turner?”

“It was something that happened almost 10 years ago,” Mr. Turner said, taking a sip of his tea, “Oh, that's good. I was wrapped up in something with someone who was very close to me, someone I thought of as a brother. We’d been through a lot, but we couldn’t both make it out of this it seems.”

“Why don’t you tell me all about it? Sometimes talking about it is the best way to get it off your chest.”

Mr. Turner nodded, taking another sip of tea before letting the cup sit under his nose as he contemplated

“I guess it all started with the Burbank program.”

I am an alcoholic

Just because I haven’t had a drink in ten years doesn’t change the fact.

They say in AA that once you’re an alcoholic, you’re always an alcoholic, it’s just a matter of time before you either slip up or you die.

Well, I guess I’m waiting for eternity, because I’ll never take a drink again for as long as I live

Not after what I saw.

Me and Tommy were in AA together. We had met in the Army, crawled to the sandbox together for a few years, and I don’t know very many of them that didn’t come out of the war zone with a burgeoning drinking problem. There wasn’t a lot of help for guys like us when we got back stateside, so we did our jobs, lived rough more often than not, and capped off most nights with a bottle of something cheap and strong. We had been drinking stateside for about seven years when the scare happened. Tommy was wandering around one night, blitzed out of his gourd, when a city bus hit him. The ER doc said if he hadn’t been drunk, he’d probably be dead, but I told him if he wasn’t drunk, he'd have had no reason to wander into the street in the first place. He broke his arm, broke a bunch of ribs, and fractured his skull, but he seemed like he was gonna make a full recovery. He didn’t have insurance, didn’t have money either, and the city didn’t look like they wanted to take responsibility for him wandering drunk into the street and getting hit. The city lawyer said they would make him a deal, a one time thing.

They would pay his medical bills, and give him a one time settlement of about 50 grand, but only if he completed an alcoholics anonymous program.

“The City Council wants to look like it’s doing something about the drunk and homeless problem. You just happen to cover both of those bases, so they have offered me a deal. You complete the program, look good for the cameras, and give them a feel good piece that they can use to show the mayor that they’re doing right, and they cut you your check and send you on your way. What you do after that is up to you, but I’d suggest not wandering out in front of any more buses.”

Tommy thought it sounded like a great idea, and I decided to start AA with him. The whole thing had been a wake up call, and I knew that it could’ve just as easily been me out in front of that bus. I thought it might help if he had somebody to go through it with too, and Tommy swore that once he got that money, he’d help make both our lives better.

I won’t forget this, Derek. You help me come on on the other side of this, and I’ll help us both get back on our feet.”

So we joined AA Together, and for the first three months it was fine. They don’t tell you when you get started, but alcohol is one of the hardest drugs to kick. I know that sounds weird given that you can buy it anywhere, but it is a drug, don’t misunderstand. Tommy and I spent the first couple of weeks, shaking on the couch together, going through DTs with a handful of drugs they gave us at the Free Clinic. The city had put us up in a cheap apartment, mostly so they could do well checks on Tommy, and we were happy for a place to stay that was out of the rain. For two months, it rained just about every other day in the city, and that was the other thing that made sobriety so bad. If we’d been able to walk around, roam the roads, we'd have probably been a lot better. Cooped up in that apartment was hell. We had cleaned out all of our hooch, and Tommy wandered around like an angry ghost. I hadn’t started drinking seriously until my second year with the army, but Tommy had apparently been drinking since he was nine. His dad was a real piece of shit, the kind of guy that likes to tie on half a dozen and come home and beat his kids as a warm-up before he really lays into his wife. Tommy fell into the bottle hard from a young age, and we’ve had screaming matches in the floor of that apartment as I held him down and refused to let him go till he finally passed out.

In that respect the meetings helped a little.

The meetings were an excuse to leave the house, and they were something that Tommy and I looked forward to every day. The city only wanted us to go to one a day, but Tommy and I always went to both. The noon day meeting was the best, mostly cause you could count on getting fed. The evening meetings were good too, but I had to watch Tommy because there was always a chance of him trying to sneak off to a bar we knew of a couple blocks over. Tommy wanted to be sober, he told me so, but his brain hadn’t quite figured it out yet. I caught him drinking Listerine more than once, and one night I had to rush him to the ER when he drank half a bottle of rubbing alcohol.

He was always apologetic afterwards, swearing, that he never do it again, but I think we both knew Tommy was a relapse waiting to happen.

He didn’t relapse for six months, but when he did, he relapsed hard.

We were sitting at an AA meeting around noon, listening to some guy talk about how he had stolen money from his sister because he had spent the paycheck he just gotten on booze, when Tommy suddenly stood up and walked to the coffee pot. I figured he just wanted more joe, but when I looked back, he was gone. I looked for him, but he was nowhere to be found. I called his sponsor, telling him to keep an eye out for him, and went home to wait. All the while as I paced and worried, this needling little voice in the back of my head tried to get me to go look for him. It told me just where I would find him, but I squashed it. I knew what it wanted, knew where it wanted me to go look for him, and I knew where that would lead me.

It had wanted the same thing for the last six months.

It wanted me to go look at a bar, not for Tommy, but for my first drink.

I sat in the apartment and watched TV instead, and that’s where I was when the Broken Stool called me.

The Broken Stool was a dive bar, plain and simple. It was a kind, a place that guys like me and Tommy went when money was tight. You could drink their watered down booze for damn near nothing. The bar owner was a lifelong alcoholic, too, and sometimes he give us drinks just cause he knew what the DTs were like. He knew it all too well, and I guarantee you that half of his stock probably went down his own throat. I should’ve known Tommy would be there. Tommy had gone out to get smashed, and if you weren’t in funds, then the broken store was the best place for it.

Derek, your buddies down here and I’ve had to cut him off. He’s drunk up near five hundred dollars of hooch, and I am beginning to suspect that he doesn’t have enough to pay his tab. Tommy's a friend, D. If it were anyone else, I'd toss him out on his ass and call the cops. Since it’s Tommy, I’m calling you, so come down here and be a friend.”

I hung up the phone, thinking that if Lenny was so worried about friendship, he probably shouldn't have served a recovering alcoholic five hundred bucks worth of camel piss.

I went and got Tommy, paid his bill, took him home, and called his sponsor.

The next day, a representative from the council was at our door, and he didn’t look happy.

Tommy told him it was just a relapse, it was just a little slip up, he was so sorry, it wouldn’t happen again, and he hated that he had to come all the way down here for nothing.

The man took it well enough, and left to get back to whatever qualified as work to those guys.

Tommy was good for three months, then he relapsed again

This time, however, it wasn’t so private.

Tommy got drunk and wandered into a nearby park where he proceeded to take a dump in the kids playground. This might’ve been easily covered up, except the playground was full of tykes and it was about 3 o’clock in the afternoon. I came to get Tommy from the police station that time, and the smell of him made me want to relapse. That’s a hard thing to say, but the man smelled enough like a distillery that I wanted to drink. You know you’ve been drinking too long when you can pick out the individual flavors on a man’s breath. Thunderbird, Mad Dog, Honey Bee, all the old friends from days gone by.

The ones that cost about three bucks a bottle, and are gone in about thirty seconds.

The city had been using Tommy as a success story, but now it was gonna be hard to do after a very public relapse.

The same guy as last time came back, but this time he wasn't smiling.

“We realized that AA may not be for everyone. So we found you a new program, a program with a one hundred percent success rate.”

I asked him how that could be in, and he said the program was just that good.

“They have never failed to cure someone of there alcoholism. It’s called the Burbank Program, and I’ve signed Tommy up to start tomorrow.”

I asked him if it wasn’t something we could do together, but the man said it was very exclusive, and more than a little experimental.

“This is your last chance, Tommy. Otherwise you’ll be back on the street and you’ll have to pay for your rehabilitation your own way.”

I came back from my noon AA meeting to find Tommy sitting on the couch with a bottle of strange liquid and a placid look stretched across his face.

I got mad, asking him what he thought it was doing, but he told me it was part of the program.

I asked him to tell me about it, and in between swigs he did.

“It’s great Derek. They give you this bottle and they tell you to drink as much as you want. It taste terrible, but it always refills itself and it kind of keeps you sociably drunk. It won’t get you falling down drunk, but it keeps you buzzed, and it always refills itself. Did I mention that last part yet? Cause it’s kind of important.”

I was skeptical, but the program seemed to really work for Tommy. He spent his days moderately buzzed, drinking out of his bottle in big long poles. True to his word, the bottle kept refilling itself, and Tommy kept drinking. I didn’t know how that was possible, but it just kept coming back. Other than that, Tommy described the usual AA stuff. They had groups you attended, classes you took, and different therapy sessions that made you want to give up drinking on your own. He said that some of the guys in the program never even picked up their bottles again after the first day, but Tommy seemed to like his too much for that.

They say it tastes bad, that it makes them sick, but it just tastes like Rotgut to me,.”

Tommy kept on drinking from the bottle, and as long as he had the bottle, he never went back to the hard stuff.

The man from the city was happy, Tommy was happy, and I had to admit I was kind of glad that I didn’t have to fight him every night to get him to not go to the bars.

It seems like a great solution, but I guess it couldn't last forever.

After a couple of months, Tommy came back and said they wanted him to give up the bottle.

Some of the other guys in the program have already done it, but there’s a few of us that don’t want to give it up. It’s stupid, why should we give up something that makes us feel good?”

I could think of a couple and I told him as much.

Tommy might be enjoying himself, but he looked terrible. He was pale and he looked like he hadn’t been sleeping well. I would have suspected he was on a several days bender, but I knew he had done nothing but drink habitually from that bottle he carried. I had asked him to see it a few times, but he always got very nervous and refused to let go of it. The bottle was his obsession, his worry stone, and the longer he kept it, the more he seemed to cling to it.

AA had really been helping me, but when I suggested that maybe he could go back he would scoff.

Why would I? I’ve got everything I need right here.”

I didn’t claim to be an expert, but I had heard enough stories to know when someone was circling the drain.

A few days later, I came home from work to find Tommy crying on the couch.

Larry disappeared! He never showed up to group today and we checked everywhere for him. He’s just gone!”

He took a long pull from the bottle and I waited for him to finish before asking him what he was talking about?

Turned out that Larry was someone from the Program, someone who also didn’t want to give up the bottle.

When Tommy and his friends told the directors of the program that Larry was missing, they didn’t seem too surprised. They said that people sometimes left the program for different reasons and that Larry had probably realized that he had gotten everything from the program that he could and left to live his life. Tommy said that's how many of them did it, but they always said goodbye first, had a little graduation ceremony.

They continued to look, but when Cecil went missing too, Tommy got scared.

Cecil was another one from the Back of the Room Club, as we used to call it in AA. The kind of guys who sit in the back row so you can’t smell the stale booze on them. The kind of guys who joke and cut up but don’t make it a year and eventually drop off.

In other words, guys like Tommy.

He had gone missing about a week after Larry, and it was just Tommy and his three friends now, the ones who wouldn’t give up their bottles. They were all a little scared now, not sure what was going on, but it seemed that Tommy had come up with a plan. When I came home to find two new guys sitting in our apartment, I had serious questions.

They're gonna stay with us for a little bit,” Tommy said, “Just till all this blows over.”

They introduced themselves as Chuck and Ferris, and they looked like the kind of guys that Tommy and I had hung out with on the streets. They both had scraggly beards, faces just coming back from being wind burnt, clothes from a rag bag, and shifty eyes that didn’t quite trust what they saw. They were guys getting back on their feet, in other words, and I told them to stay as long as they needed to.

That didn’t stop me from moving everything I didn’t want to disappear from the living room into my room.

Sometimes drunks take it into their heads to steal, and these three were no different. I noticed little things missing sometimes, but mostly it was just the food from the pantry. They had tremendous appetites, something I had failed to notice when it was just Tommy, and I found myself making frequent trips to the store. Besides eat, all they seemed to do was go to the program activities and sip from those endless bottles. It wasn’t till they were all together that I started noticing how Tommy wasn’t the palest of them either. They all looked ragged, all looked haggard, and all of them seemed utterly attached to those damn bottles. The weirdest part was how they drank from them. Each sip seemed to drag their lips into the neck, making their faces look long and stretched before they were released with a loud pop.

The effect was a little sickening.

About a week after they came to stay with us, Tommy handed me some fliers as I headed out to the corner store.

For Cecil,” he said, “If he’s still out there, we want people to know we’re lookin for him.”

I wanted to refuse him, but his face looked so nakedly hopeful, that I just couldn’t say no.

The store owner wasn’t excited about letting me hang the poster in the window, but he said to go ahead.

I inevitably found myself stopping in the liquor aisle, my arms shaking a little as I buried the pissy little voice that told me to go buy a bottle, a case, and put all this silly AA stuff behind me. I could be happy again, satisfied with the way I was, live happily ever after.

I was getting ready to leave with the little basket of snacks, when I noticed something else.

I’m not proud of it, but I’ve gone through a lot of liquor in my time. I’ve drank most brands of gas station alcohol, and when I saw the gaudy silver package, it looked alien to me. It wasn’t a brand I was familiar with, but the well dressed man on the label was someone I had seen before. If I needed a reminder, all I would have to do is walk outside and look at the front window.

I had just hung his picture in the window, hadn’t I?

My hands shook as I reached for the package, and it took all my newfound control to take it back without stopping in a convenient alley and plunging into oblivion.

I had intended to show the case to Tommy, but it turned out that something had happened while I was away. I could hear a commotion from our apartment as I came up the stairs, and arrived to find Tommy and one of his friends freaking out. They were standing around one of the big glass jugs they all had from the program and yelling about how Ferris was gone. When I asked where he had gone, they just kept pointing at the jug and saying he had gone in there.

I got the two of them calmed down a little, and Tommy was finally able to tell me the whole story.

They had been drinking in the living room, taking pulls from their jugs, when Farris had started coughing. They had pounded him on the back, but Tommy said the third slap had sent a hand straight into his clothes. Before their very eyes, he had leaned over the jug, coughing into it harshly, before simply sliding into the neck and sloshing into the container. When I asked how that was even possible, they said it was like his body had turned to liquid and he had simply fallen into the container.

They had set his jug on the coffee table in the living room, and I don’t think any of us were capable of looking away from it.

It was hard not to notice the set of nearly transparent eyes that floated inside like a mirage.

The case of beer lay forgotten in the foyer, and it may still be there to this day.

We didn’t leave the apartment for the next five days. Tommy and Chuck mostly just sat around, and I was afraid to leave them for more than quick bathroom trips. They snuck horrified glances at the jug on the coffee table, but seemed unable to stop themselves from sipping from their own. They had witnessed something terrible, something none of them had expected, and now they were forced to come to terms with something so unreal. I wasn’t one hundred percent sure that I believed them, but I couldn’t deny the way they were acting.

Two days later, I wouldn’t be able to live in ignorance any longer.

Two days later and I would watch Chuck suffer the same fate.

It was raining again as I cooked them breakfast, and I had already decided to skip today's AA meeting like I had yesterday. My sponsor had come by the house to make sure I hadn't relapsed, but one look at Tommy and Chuck had been enough to prove that I was “helping a friend through troubled times.” He said to maybe bring them to a meeting if they wanted to come, but they were both so shell shocked that neither wanted to do much besides eat and sleep.

And drink, they still did plenty of that.

Tommy had cut way back on his drinking, looking at the bottle with great distrust, but Chuck was really hooked through the bag. He would sob every time he took a drink, and every drink seemed to cost him more of the skin on his lips. His lips had looked chapped when I'd first met him, but now they looked like someone with fever blisters who keeps picking at them. I could see skin floating in the bottle sometimes, and the whole picture made me squeeby.

I had just plated some eggs and toast, the ladle for the grits in my hand, when I heard a loud thunk that was followed by Tommy's helpless wail.

I turned towards the sound, and saw the strangest thing I'd ever witnessed.

I had seen atrocities before, seen woman and children blown to pieces and men set on fire in the street, but this was the closest my mind had ever come to simply packing it's shit and stepping out.

The bottle was on the floor, Chuck's hands tugging at the small handles on either side, but his head was stuck in the neck. He looked like a cartoon character, his suddenly malleable melon squeezed into the mouth of the jug. Through the glass, I could see his terrified face, his eyes roving around like a spooked horse, and the more he tugged, the more he seemed to fall inward. The jug had him, the bottle slowly consumption him, and after a particularly hard tug, he simply glooped into the jug and his body filled it to its breaking point.

The sound of him pressing into the space was like a honey dipper truck pulling sewage from a part-a-potty.

Tommy took up the bottle as I stood in the kitchen, the plate of eggs slipping out of my hand, and he stared into the glass with naked fear.

Perhaps he thought he was looking into the future, but the look was inscrutable.

Chuck!” he yelled, and Chuck's pinched features stared out at him from inside the jug.

Frozen as I was, I couldn't stop him as he reached for the bat we kept beside the door.

I raised my voice to tell him not to, but as the metal slammed into the side of the bottle, I heard it shatter like a bell in the cold.

Chuck may have been freed from his glass prison, but he was far from saved. His form was more liquid than solid now, his skin translucent as water. I could see his organs through his skin, his teeth through his mouth, and when he hit the floor a midst the glass, he began to slide through the carpet. The fabric drank him greedily, and when he tried to scream, his face was like a burbling drain in a bathroom. He stared at us with naked fear as he sank and whatever Chuck had become, he dribbled into the carpet and likely into the space between apartment floors.

Tommy and I could do nothing but stand there and watch him go, the rain providing a backdrop for the tragedy before us.

I'd like to tell you that Tommy smashed his own bottle and never picked it up again, but I can't lie to myself any more than I can to you.

Tommy lasted another two days before the jug took him.

You might think that its odd, but we just sat there, not sure what to do. Who would believe us if we told them? No body was left behind, no evidence of a crime, and what could the police do but laugh at a couple of drunks who had clearly fallen off the wagon? I tried to call the Burbank Program, but all I got was an automated system. The man from the city wouldn't answer his phone either, and the longer it rang, the more I began to think that he had known this would happen. Was this there intention? Did they mean to erase an embarrassing element by means of the bottle?

As bad as I probably looked, Tommy was far worse.

His own bottle sat in the corner when he had tossed it, but his blood shot eyes kept tracking back to it. I tried to get him to eat or sleep or do anything but sit and stare, but Tommy seemed to have uncoupled from reality. If the TV was on, he would watch it. If it weren't he would stare at the set blankly. Regardless, he seemed incapable or unwilling to move from the couch, and I worried that he would do something foolish.

I was coming out of my room on the second day when I found him hunkered in the floor with the jug pressed against his lips.

He looked ashamed to be caught doing so, but as I stared in disbelief, he only shook his head.

I can't help it. The drinks had me for as long as I can remember. It was only a matter of time before it took me completely.”

He laughed after he had freed his mouth from the opening, shaking his head at the absurdity of his statement.

My mom used to say that about my dad. “It's not his fault, Tom. The bottle took him. He's not himself when the bottle takes him, Tommy.” I never understood that phrase until now, but I guess my dad and I aren't so different after all. The bottle took him, and now it's going to get me too.”

He laughed then, tipping it back as the liquid sloshed down his front and I realized that I couldn't stay here and watch him kill himself with that damned glass monstrosity anymore.

I went to my room and went back to bed, ignoring the strange watery sounds I heard from the living room.

I came back later to find I was alone in the apartment, the jug sitting beside the couch the only proof Tommy had been there at all.

As I stared at it, I wanted so many things in that moment.

I wanted Tommy to come through the door and tell me he had just gone out for smokes.

I wanted to call my sponsor and tell him I needed help.

I wanted to slide into that same bottle and see what peace lay at the bottom.

But, above all else, I wanted a drink.

Instead, I packed a bag and left.

I knew that if I stayed there much longer, I would inevitably drink again.

I hit the road, lived the life of a nomad for a while, and one day I found myself in Cashmere and saw a sign in the window of the hardware store looking for help.

Eight years later I'm the manager of that hardware store, but the bottle still threatens to take me.

He leaned over the cup and as the ball of sludge slid out of him, he made his own glooping noise. It fell into the tea like a chunk of ice, and as it splashed him, Winter was glad to see that it had cooled as he talked. She took the cup from him before he could come back around, and she had it secured in the cabinet with the others when he shook his head.

It had been brown and smelled a little of hops.

That was new.

“Did I pass out?” he asked, rising shakily as he got to his feet.

“A momentary fugue.” she assured him, “I think we got to the root of the problem. You don't have to worry about it anymore.”

He nodded, smiling dopeily as he tripped from the room. She knew that he would feel a little hallow for the next few days, but he would ultimately forget that he had been here at all. He would feel better then, but sometimes that hallow feeling would come back and he wouldn't understand why.

Doctor Winter wished she could take his desire to drink away so easily, but some things had claws and did more damage upon removal then when they were left well enough alone. 

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Doctor Winter's Forgetfulness Clinic: My Uncle Trapped a Demon

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"Mr. Pate, how are you today?"

The man sitting across from her looked like he was doing quite poorly.

Calling him a man might have been generous, Dr. Winter saw. He was a large teen, probably still in high school, but his face bore the look worn by inmates on death row. Though filled with melancholy, he had none of the trappings that usually accompanied children in their late teens. His arms bore none of the self-harm scars Winter usually found. He wasn't festooned in dark colors or piercings, and even his haircut was unassuming.

Still, something seemed to hang around him like a smog cloud, and Winter was curious to find out what it was.

"I've had a pretty unique childhood, and there are some things I'd like to get rid of. I've talked to people who say you're legit, and I'm hoping you can help me.

Winter nodded, rising as she made him a cup of the tea. Winter cherry, ginseng, and something known only to her created a heady brew in her nose as she filled the cup. When she handed it to him, some of his despair melted away. He took a careful sip, wincing as it burned him a little, but smacked his lips appreciatively.

"You'll have to tell me where you get this when we're done. I think this is the best tea I've ever had."

"It's a special blend," she said, picking up her notebook as she took up her own cup of tea and had a sip, "Now, why don't you start with what you'd like to forget?"

"I guess it all started about seven years ago when I lived with my uncle on his estates."

* * * * *

My uncle was kind of a weird guy.

I lived with him for two years after CPS took me away from my parents. My parents were not what you would call reliable caregivers. They were way more interested in pushing dope into their veins than caring for a child, so I was bounced around between family members after the state finally took action. Thankfully, I've got a pretty big family, and most of them are pretty reliable. My aunt is a photographer for a magazine and took me in for two years. I was four and still young enough to accompany her when she left town for business, but she feared I wouldn't get a consistent education living with her. So, I went to stay with my grandparents for a while. My grandma was a loving woman with plenty of time for a growing boy and a curious child. My grandfather, however, was a grouchy old man who didn't want some young kid running around and making a lot of noise. I stayed with them for a few years until Gramps had enough of it one day and asked my uncle if he would take me.

He agreed, so I packed my things and went to stay with Uncle Mark.

One thing you should know about Uncle Mark is that he was loaded. I don't know exactly how much he was worth, but he had purchased a small estate outside our hometown with ten acres and a "manor home." I have no idea how he made his money, but that led right to the second important thing about Uncle Mark.

Uncle Mark was nuts. Everybody knew it, and everybody accepted it. He wasn't nuts in the traditional way, the kind that will get you put away forever. Uncle Mark just believed in some rather outlandish things. He believed heavily in the occult, especially their connection to important figures in the government. He’d talk for hours about the Illuminati or the Skull and Bones controversy and would tell anyone who would listen that demons and Hell are as real as you and I.

So when a big black sedan pulled up to Grandma and Grandpa's house, and a guy with greasy black hair and a neat suit stepped out to open the door for me, I assumed he was just a fancy cab driver. The man identified himself as Cassius, and it turned out he was Uncle Mark's right-hand man. The drive wasn't long, but it seemed to last longer since Cassius said nothing. We turned off the road, and I could see Uncle Mark's mansion as it rose above the trees. It had once belonged to a general in the Civil War, my uncle told me multiple times, and he had spent a fortune restoring it to its glory days. People were milling about when we pulled up, and I pressed my nose against the glass as I counted about ten men and women in sand-colored robes, going about different tasks.

"Who are they?" I asked, nose still pressed against the glass.

"They are your uncle's disciples. He's gotten quite a following in our community, and some people like to live close so they can receive his wisdom."

I had about a thousand questions, but Cassius was around the car and opening the door before I noticed he'd stopped the car.

He showed me inside, and the house looked like a museum more than a home. The more I saw, the more excited I became. It looked like a house from an old movie, everything being lacquered wood and old soft furniture. A fire was burning in the grate, and I could see more of the robed people as they cleaned. I had thought maybe there were a few families here, five or ten people at the most, but the more I saw, the more I realized there were more people here than I had imagined. We went upstairs, Uncle Mark wanting to have a look at me, and when Cassius pushed open the doors to my Uncle's library, I got my first look at Uncle Mark as he sat in his element. He smiled and welcomed me warmly to my new home.

"It's good to see you, my boy. I'm glad we can finally speak candidly."

I had only met uncle Mark a handful of times, but I knew my Dad was a little bit scared of him. He said Uncle Mark was always into weird stuff while they were growing up, and if a smack addict is afraid of you, there's got to be a pretty good reason. The few times I'd met him, he seemed like a nice enough guy. Uncle Mark always asked weird questions, like if I could read or if I could see strange things, but I always figured he was just having the same problems my parents were. Dad said all kinds of weird stuff when he was high, so I assumed these interactions were normal.

Living with Uncle Mark showed me that these things were only normal for Uncle Mark.

I tried to pay attention as my uncle told me about his home, but I couldn't stop looking around at the mountain of books that surrounded us. I had taught myself to read, though my mother had helped a little. It gave me something to do while my parents lived in a warm haze. I loved books, and I was a voracious reader. I wanted to explore this place filled with new experiences, but I had begun to notice that many of them looked strange. Quite a few were written in languages I couldn't read, but that made me want to learn all the more.

"You like books, do you?" he said, and his laugh was rich and genuine, "Seems you and I share a similar desire for knowledge."

I turned back to him, afraid of the coming slap or the yell that would ring through my head, but he just smiled at me, no clouds darkening his mood. I think I truly saw him for the first time then. He was dressed like a sultan, his white robes covered in strange symbols and his pointy shoes up on an autumn. He was drinking something from a real glass and being attended to by a few of the people I'd seen in the brown robes. He told me he had been looking forward to meeting me for years, and it was the first time I think someone other than my Aunt had been genuinely happy to have me around. I told him we had met a few times before, but Uncle Mark said he had been waiting to meet me properly.

"Your father and I never really got along, but I could tell that you were a little brighter than your parents. They kept you from me because they feared I would tell you the truth. I'm glad that you finally found your way to listen."

That was the start of my education. Uncle Mark and I talked a lot that day, and he explained what he wanted for me. Uncle Mark had created a paradise for himself here, but it had come at a price. He could not have children and would have no one to carry on his legacy when he was no more. He wanted to teach me his ways, to teach me the things that had brought him success, and in exchange, I would inherit his legacy when he passed on.

"But only if you learn the things I have to teach you. I can make you better than where you have come from, but you must be willing to learn."

I told him I wanted to learn, not knowing what that terrible knowledge would be.

I would learn in time.

Uncle Mark took me out of school, deciding to homeschool me instead. I had been a good student. I'd mostly received A's and B's, but Uncle Mark's lessons were a little different. He still taught me Math and English, but the History lessons were more of an arcane variety. He taught me about witch trials, the beginning of secret societies, practitioners of actual Magic, as he called them, and many other things I had never even heard of. He taught me to read many of the books he kept in his library too, and seemed happy when I took to languages like a sponge. They say the kids will do that, but I look back now and see that some of these languages were so archaic that it should be impossible that anyone could read them. I never had to take any of the tests that I had to take back in school, and I think now that Uncle Mark must've been bribing someone to keep them from having a closer look at his curriculum.

It wasn’t like going to Hogwarts, or anything. Uncle Mark told me that real capital M Magic takes years to cultivate, and I needed to build a foundation before I was ready to do spell work. He believed I would be ready in a few years, and my days were spent pouring over old books and learning runes and sigils in languages I came to be very familiar with.

This went on for a few years and culminated one night when he called me to the basement.

I came down at moonrise, not an uncommon time for Uncle Mark to teach me lessons. I found a bunch of his disciples making symbols on the ground with chalk as others used crowbars and chisels to open canals in the stone. Some of them I understood, but many were things I'd never seen before. Uncle Mark held court over it all, nodding here and telling some of them to fix little things there. When he saw me, he put a hand on my shoulder and cast his other hand out at the space like a game show host showing off prizes. He seemed to be waiting for me to say something, but I wasn't sure what he wanted. I was twelve, after all, and all this was a little new to me.

"Well?" he finally asked, looking a little perturbed.

"It's, uh, pretty cool, Uncle Mark."

"Pretty cool?" he asked skeptically, "It's a little more than pretty cool, my boy. As my apprentice, I would've expected you to recognize a greater circle of binding."

That got my attention. Uncle Mark had taught me about circles. Some of them were used for protection, some of them were used to channel things, and some of them were used to hold things if you could get them inside. This one, it appeared, was of the latter variety. I didn't know what Uncle Mark was going to try to catch in his circle, but everything I had read made me think it might be a bad idea.

"What are you going to try to catch?" I asked, unable to help myself.

"A demon," he said, almost casually.

He must have heard me suck in my breath because I pretended to cough when I felt him looking at me.

I had been learning about all these things, but I wasn't really sure I believed any of them. I had watched my uncle do some pretty cool tricks, but I'd never actually seen him do Magic. Parlor tricks, things you could've seen on any Vegas show stage, sure, but nothing like on the Lord of the Rings anything. He was a good enough manipulator to convince people he could do Magic, but I always figured that was about as far as it went.

"Is this safe?" I asked, and for good reason.

All the books Uncle Mark had in the library about demons made them sound dangerous and temperamental. Priests sometimes banished demons back to their plane of existence, and warlocks sometimes pressed them into service, but demons were strong and usually best left alone. The idea that my uncle wanted to trap one made me very uneasy.

"You're with me, boy. There's nowhere that could be safer." but when he said it, his hand tightened a little on my shoulders, almost painfully.

Uncle Mark had never been cruel to me, but I knew he could turn mean if the mood took him. I had seen him yelling at some of his followers, even seen him hit a few of them, and I knew enough to know I didn't want that anger turned onto me. I shut my mouth, nodding along as I agreed with him. Uncle Mark had always been careful up till this point, but this sudden desire to show his power in some grand gesture was not what I was used to.

Most of this probably had to do with Samuel.

Samuel had been one of Uncle Mark's oldest followers besides Cassius. He acted as the representative between my uncle and his disciples, but lately, something had changed. He had begun telling people Uncle Mark was a charlatan, and they should follow him instead since he had the real Magic. Uncle Mark could have thrown him out, but that might lend some credence to Samuel's lies. My uncle lived comfortably here with his servants, and losing them might cut into some of that comfort.

Thus, Uncle Mark would have to prove his powers.

I watched as his disciples worked, observing in silence as Uncle Mark corrected their labors. The circle was made of different items, each ring a collection of something unique. The inside ring was silver, his followers heating the metal as they set it into the floor. The middle layer was gold, and they poured the molten liquid right into the stone ring. It was crisscrossed with veins of silver once it cooled, and gems were set into the hardening ooze at key points. The outer ring was the oddest of all, a circle of frozen water that seemed ever on the verge of sweating back into a liquid state.

The combination of elements was impressive, but I couldn't begin to understand how they all came together.

"When do you think you'll trap it?" I asked, watching the rings come together.

"Tonight, I should think." He said, smirking at me like he'd just told the most outrageous joke.

"So soon?" I asked, hoping I had misheard.

Uncle Mark's face grew stern as he watched them at their work, "It's time I put Samuel in his place."

As the hours ticked closer to midnight, Uncle Mark assembled his disciples. Samuel was amongst them, looking smug as he watched my uncle open his battered old grimoire, and begin chanting. Uncle Mark never said where he had found that old grimoire, but I had seen it many times. As he spoke, the rings began to hum, and the stones in them seemed to twinkle with eldritch light. He turned to look at his followers, seeing the circle flare to life, and his smile was confident as his eyes fell on Samuel.

"My students, I'd like to thank you for joining me tonight. I know there have been some amongst you recently who have come to doubt my power but doubt no longer. Tonight I will demonstrate my abilities for you by catching and caging one of the strongest entities of the nine hells, a demon."

A thrum came up through the crowd, but Samuel pretended to yawn as he grinned at his teacher. Samuel clearly thought my uncle would do no more than put on a light show for us, but he was wrong. Uncle Mark had clearly brought his A game and meant to show us all who the real Wizard was that night. He drew five others to the points of the star, Cassius opposite him in the order, and they began to chant and call out to something whose name could not be known to mortals. Demon names are strange. They sound furry on the tongue, they have too many consonants, and their vowels are not in ordinary places. The members of the circle began to chant the name, and the circle danced with fairy light.

As they chanted, the inside began to pulsate with a strange light.

I trusted my uncle, even revered him, but I agreed with Samuel that night. My uncle was a man of means, and clearly, this was some show meant to cow the spectators. He would call something from a secret compartment in the floor, I had no doubt, but I doubted it would be some demon from the pit. Most likely it would be someone in a costume. Some convincing bit of prosthesis that, in the dancing firelight and the moody shadows of the basement, would seem very real and very devilish.

The chanting and light show went on for the better part of a half hour, and many of his disciples had begun to fidget nervously. They were becoming slightly bored by it, and some of them might've been starting to think that Samuel was right. My uncle had meant for this to prove his power, but all it was doing was cementing in their minds that he was a fake. Samuel seemed unbothered by any of this. He stood with his arms across his chest, smirking at my uncle as he dared him to do something besides stand there and embarrass himself.

That was when my uncle obliged him.

The chanting stopped suddenly, and my uncle raised his head and uttered a single guttural word that the rest had been chanting constantly. It fell confidently from his mouth, and there was no slur or hiccup in his pronunciation. He spoke it with a practiced tongue, and it seemed to vibrate the entire room as he uttered it.

"Malisphul Rihn!"

Suddenly, and without warning, an unearthly scream echoed across the chamber. In the center of the circle, a creature that defied logic had appeared. It was man-shaped but bestial formed. Its head appeared to be that of a bulldog, but there was no happy, lapping face on this one. Its body was something like Arnold Schwarzenegger in his prime, set onto the torso of a silverback gorilla. It had four massive arms, three huge legs, and a set of wings that seemed to crackle against an invisible dome as they attempted to unfurl. It was the color of molten cheese baked into a cheap pan, and its skin seemed to undulate like a living sore. That's the closest I can come to describing it. Its dimensions and form we're not of this world, and to try would be to do it a disservice.

As the creature loosed another of those unearthly screams, the disciples fell to their knees and began to pray to my uncle to save them from this abomination.

"Worry not," he said smugly, "He cannot hurt you. I have trapped him inside a greater circle, and he is mine to command."

The demon flexed its arms, ready to test this, but as I watched, its eyes seemed to dart around the room as if it were counting. The demon relaxed when it saw how many were assembled, glaring at my uncle as if he were the most audacious thing he had ever seen. I didn't trust its sudden helplessness and wanted nothing so much as to tell my uncle to release it before something terrible happened.

I wish now that I had, despite the beating it likely would have earned me.

"Are you he who is known as Marcus Pate?"

The demon's voice was deep and dark, and my uncle had to steel himself to avoid the shutter that tried to ripple up him.

"Do you see that?" he asked his disciples, "even the demons of hell know of me."

Whether the creature agreed with this statement or not, it remained quiet. It sat in the circle, folding its legs as it hunkered in the circle's confines, glowering at my uncle. Its dog's face was filled with rage, but I sensed a quiet patient in it. The demon was a being of the burning hells, an immortal creature of another plane. It could wait for my uncle to die if it needed to, and I think it knew that.

As I turned to ask my uncle something, I was suddenly aware that a small throng of disciples were around him. Samuel was amongst them, confessing his sins to Uncle Mark and telling him how sorry he was that he had ever doubted him. My uncle played the magnanimous guru, but I could tell how much he ate this up. Uncle Mark was wise but also had a deep reservoir of ego that enjoyed being placated. He generously forgave them, telling them how they knew better now, and sent them off to their assigned tasks.

"Cassius, you may take the next watch of this one," he said, indicating the demon, "My young ward and I will take the first. Come by sunrise and bring your witts. He may try to trick you and gain his freedom."

Cassius said he would be there at dawn, and as they left, my uncle and I found ourselves alone with the creature.

Uncle Mark said nothing the whole night. He walked around the circle, observing the demon from every angle. He seemed in awe of his own daring, not quite believing it had worked. The demon studied him as well, its piggy eyes glaring at him with hatred. The creature's intentions were clear, and I feared what it would do to Uncle Mark if it ever got loose. I was still young enough that the thought of my own death was laughable, but Uncle Mark had been so kind to me and given me so much that the thought of something happening to him was truly upsetting.

As the three of us kept our vigils, the creature turned its attention from my uncle to me.

I was looking at the demon as it followed Uncle Mark when its head suddenly shifted on its thick neck to regard me. Its eyes bore into me, the doggish face holding a pair of suddenly captivating orbs. Those eyes seemed to promise me things. They told me of great prizes that could be mine, and when my uncle stepped in front of me, I growled as I tried to lunge around him.

I shook myself when he slapped my face, unsure of what had happened.

"Don't let him hook you, son. He's a terrible beast, and lies are like mana to him."

"I wish you'd turn him loose." I whispered, unable to stop myself from peeking under his arm at it, "I don't think I'll sleep a wink as long as it's in the house."

"Don't be foolish," he spat, suddenly angry, "this creature is my legacy, and I'll let all the naysayers and doubters have a look."

The idea of letting people down here to see it filled me with a new sort of dread.

I didn't know what my uncle was planning, but I suddenly felt sure that it would go poorly.

Uncle Mark began sending out invitations. Not emails, not phone calls, but actual invitations. They were these little cream-colored things with black traces around the edges, proclaiming that the holder was invited to a miraculous show. It honestly made him sound more like a Las Vegas showman than a master of the universe, but he assured me that it was how things were done in his circle.

"They will expect a little showmanship for what I have in store for them."

He sent them to everyone, it seemed. Rivals and friends alike, especially those who had doubted him. Uncle Mark had been running in the circles since his late teens and seemed to have accumulated more doubters and rivals than actual friends. Like Samuel, many looked at him as a charlatan, but he assured me he would end all that a week from now.

"When they see what I have in store, no one will doubt my power ever again."

His disciples set about making the house ready for guests. The rooms were cleaned, new furniture was brought in, and many little display cases were set up around the house so Uncle Mark could show off his collection. There were wands, daggers, books, and even items my uncle claimed were enchanted. These were all things he had found in his journeys, and he hoped they would lend credence to his claims.

The demons stayed inside the circle, but I had come to mistrust that placid beast whenever I had reason to be in the cellar. He never moved, never ate, never drank, and seemed only to watch those who were with him. That wasn't to say that he wasn't busy as well. In that week, three disciples killed themselves while on watch, one of them by tearing his own eyes and tongue out. By Wednesday, Uncle Mark had taken to guarding him himself. The two of us sat down there for hours with the creature, and if Uncle Mark wasn't guarding him, then Cassius and Samuel had the task. Samuel was like a changed man after witnessing Uncle Mark's summoning. He apologized daily for doubting him, and there has been no more talk of leaving amongst the disciples. He and Cassius seem to be the only two Uncle Mark felt he could trust to watch the creature, other than himself and I, of course.

That is how I came to be in the cellar with him the night before the gathering and had a moment to speak with the demon.

Uncle Mark had been awake for two days, and I was unsurprised to find him asleep in his chair around two in the morning. The demon had noticed him, too, and our gazes found each other yet again. I approached the circle, careful not to cross it. That would've been a very big mistake and one I would likely not have survived.

Instead, I stood at the edge as the two of us observed each other.

"Why do you let my uncle think he has trapped you?"

The demon's laugh was like a stone falling to the bottom of a very deep well.

"What makes you believe he hasn't?"

"I've been studying the circle for five days. I'm not as scholarly as my uncle, but I know it has imperfections. I think you could leave if you wanted to, so why don't you?"

The otherworldly creature blinked at me, and I got the feeling it was really seeing me for the first time.

"You might be smarter than that old man gives you credit for."

"Smart enough to know it's not a good idea to trap things you can't control."

The demon sat back, grinning toothily at me, "Make sure that's a lesson you remember when you grow as old as fat as that one." it said, indicating my sleeping uncle.

I let my uncle sleep, and the demon and I continued our silent vigil over the others.

He would need his strength for tomorrow's show and for what I suspected might be the biggest and brightest show of his life.

They begin arriving before sunset the next day. They all came whether they wanted to or not, enticed by the curiosity of his invitation. Some wore suits, and some wore cloaks, but they all possessed the sort of fantastical assurance that my uncle did. It was in the way their faces pinched or their eyebrows raised when you said something they disagreed with. It was the kind of assurance that says, "yes, yes, I know more than you, I've seen more than you, and the things you think are amazing are the things I see as I butter my toast every morning." They arrived in old cars and limousines, one even came in a horse-drawn carriage, but as night set upon the house, they all arrived.

With the spectators in attendance, my uncle came down the grand staircase of his manor house like the belle of the ball.

He was dressed in a long white cloak, stars and swirls emblazoned upon it, in a new crushed velvet suit that must have cost him more than some of the cars in front of the house. He shook hands, greeting all of them by name, and as his disciples walked around with drinks and food, he told some of them about the wonders he had under glass. Some of them were impressed. Most of them simply nodded and smiled politely, treating the items on display like you might a stack of knick knacks at a garage sale. They undoubtedly had their own collection of strange antiquities, and his were nothing to write home about.

No, what they had come for was nothing less than the show he had promised them.

He let them mingle until the grandfather clock struck midnight.

Then he ushered everyone down to the basement for what he promised would be the event of a lifetime.

They all clamored into the confined space, crowding around the curtain that Uncle Mark had hung around the circle. Some of the disciples stood around it, politely advising the crowd that they not touch. When everyone was downstairs, my uncle stood before the opening and rolled his sleeves with a practiced flip. Like a magician at a children's birthday party, he pulled the curtain to reveal his grand finale. They all gasped appreciatively, a few of them even screaming in fear, but they all looked at my uncle a little differently when they saw the demon he had trapped in that circle. I would later realize that even the people he called friends had considered him a faker. They all thought he was charismatic, a real Jim Jones type or maybe even another Herschel Applewhite, but when it came to Magic, he was a little more than a convincing performer.

What they saw now convinced them they had been wrong, and my Uncle Marcus was the real deal.

Immediately the questions came.

How had he done it?

Where have you gotten the knowledge?

How had he constructed his circle?

They gathered around him like a flock of birds, their incessant questions increasing as my uncle told them all would be explained. They wanted to see his grimoire, where he had found the name of this creature. They wanted to inspect the circle so they might duplicate it in their own environment. They wanted to inspect the demon so that they might have a better idea of his makeup. Could my uncle contain him so that they could get closer? Could he destroy it while maintaining the body so they might inspect it closer?

All of their questions inflated my uncle's ego, but that ego died as quickly as their questions, when the lights suddenly went out.

My uncle turned, trying to see if someone had bumped the lights, but when a glow rose up in the room, he knew it had been no accident. The glow came from the creature as he hunkered in the circle, and when he stood and unfurled his wings, the barrier did not repel him. Many in the crowd took a cautionary step back, but they were trapped in the basement, and all the space allotted would not save them.

The demon's voice sounded huge in the small space, and every word he said will forever be indelibly etched into my memory.

"Perhaps I can answer some of your burning questions," it said as it stepped over the first ring of the circle, "This man has constructed no circle that will hold me. This man has constructed nothing that would hold the likes of me. This man is a charlatan, just like the rest of you. You all play at Magic. That's why you call it practice. None of you can grasp an iota of the divine that is stored in my smallest finger, let alone muster the power to travel from your pitiful little dimension into mine."

As he spoke, he attempted to step across the middle ring. To my surprise, and my uncle's credit, his foot stopped in the air for a count of four. It was a minute thing, no more than an eye blink, but the ring had stopped him momentarily. As his foot came down on the other side, however, I knew that it had been only a piddling thing.

"The only thing he did correctly was to call me by name, and I will give him credit where credit is due. His pronunciation of that abyssal tone was precise and enlightening. Truly, it gives me hope for your species, though not a lot."

He stood between the middle and final rings for what felt like an eternity, and I imagined that everyone in the basement was holding their breath.

"And why did I stay inside the circle of an underwhelming wizard for so long? Well, it's quite simple. Every one, above and below, knows of the deep insecurities and deeper pride of Marcus Pate. I can assure you, you fumbling pretender, I wanted nothing more than to rip you apart and drink the squirt of mana you and your little flock have. But I realized that if I stayed and made you think I was powerless, you would draw bigger fish for my dinner. Fish with more than a splash of mana. You are all pretenders, all bumbling apprentices before the power I was weaned to, but you are also, all of you, churning with stolen power, and I will feast well tonight."

He stepped over the final circle, shattering whatever protection may have existed within it.

The rest is, thankfully, a blur. I was nearly trampled by the crowd as it surged around me, and as they shoved me down, I felt one of the columns in the basement bang hard against my back. I ducked down, curling into a ball as the sea of people parted around me. I was pulled and pushed, but I did not get taken by that tide. I was content to sit on my rock as the river was cut by a pike much too large to hold it.

I remember the first warm splatter as it hit me.

My hair was suddenly damp, and as a loud roar cut through the cacophony, I put my hands against my ears and felt my skull vibrate dully.

I cowered through almost all the carnage. People fell around me, their blood making my hair and skin tacky, and there always seemed to be more. The demon moved amongst them like a shadow, cutting and slicing as he came, turning them into a slurry. I felt his claws slice inches from my head more times than I could count, and when the hair wafted down around my ears, I realized how close he had actually come. The fifty or so people in the basement took forever to be shredded, though I remember it seeming to end just as quickly as it began.

When the screaming and moaning had finally come to a low death, I opened my eyes and looked up to find the impossibly large demon standing over me.

As I looked up into the urine-colored eyes, I saw my short life pass before my eyes and was not impressed with my journey.

I could feel his acrid exhalations on my face as he knelt to my level.

It smelled like hell itself.

"I have decided not to kill you, little one. I want you to remember two things as you go about your long and eventful life. The first is that your spark of mana is greater than your uncle could have ever dreamed, though you will need to tend it to grow it to its full potential. The second," and as his wet, squashed nose bumped mine, I almost shrieked in fear.

"The second is that demons are not the playthings of the magically stunted. Tell them that my kind are not to be trifled with, and the next time one of you apes feels like you can stand on even footing with a demon, I will do much worse than this."

He touched the column I was cowering against, and as the flames licked down it, I glanced up and saw them sprouting to the ceiling as well.

"This house will be ashes in less than an hour. If you want to live, I suggest you not be in it.

I found myself rising, little as I wanted to, and climbing the stairs as I walked from my uncle’s house. They told me later that I had burns on my feet, similar to walking through a bed of cooling ashes, but I didn't feel them while they were happening. I walked out of the house like someone in a dream, standing in the courtyard of Uncle Mark's palatial house as the flames consumed it. I stood there until the twinkling lights of the fire trucks came into view, and the men in the fire coats led me to the ambulance. My uncle's closest neighbor was two miles away, but they had apparently smelled the smoke and seen the blaze from their bedroom windows.

I went to live with my Aunt again after that. She worked mostly from home now, her job more relaxed than it had been. My Aunt moved us here, to Cashmere, for a job with the local paper, and that's how I came to be sitting on your couch, Mrs. Winter. Some parts of my childhood are foggy, I've forgotten a lot of the things my Uncle taught me, but many of the more practical things have wormed their way into my daily life. My teachers are trying to push me into a career in Anthropology or Antiquities, like my Uncle. They think my knowledge of languages and certain old-world customs could be beneficial to me in those fields, but I don't know if I want to invite those kinds of feelings in again. What if I become as bad as my uncle was? What if I fall into the same trap that snared him? What if next time, I'm the one looking at a rabbit cage and thinking it will hold a tiger.

* * * * *

The young man looked on the verge of pushing the lump from his throat, and Winter hoped he wouldn't choke when she suddenly brought his teeth back together with a gentle hand. He gagged, his throat bulging as he swallowed his memories again. The cup spilled from his hand, and he looked at her in bewilderment as she stared back at him evenly.

"What did you do that for?" he asked, tears leaking from his eyes.

She could tell that he wanted to be rid of this memory, had been rid of it for a wonderful moment, only to find out that it would be with him forever.

"I won't take this memory. I'll tell Juliet to tear up your paperwork. Don't come here again, Mr. Pate. I won't take this memory from you."

Winter turned, and when he grabbed her arm, she turned back to give him the full brunt of her stare.

"Why not? I need this gone! I don't want this terrible knowledge to," but he stopped when he looked into her eyes.

She wondered what he saw there?

She wondered if it seemed familiar?

"Touch me again, and I will teach you a lesson that cannot be forgotten. Go, take your knowledge, and serve your purpose. Study old bones and other people's leavings who were much wiser than you, and spread your truth to those who have decided they are wise."

He tried to let her go, and when she grabbed his arm and pulled him close, she saw the cowering boy he had once been.

"Demons are not your playthings, and you would do well to remember it."

Dameon nodded, his head flopping a little as he wobbled his acceptance, and when she let him go, he knocked his chair over as he scuttled from the room.

Pamela could have used the money from that session, but the lesson was one that needed to be taught.

She knew creatures that would thank her for not scrubbing one, such as him, even if he wouldn't. 

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Wednesday, August 30, 2023

Doctor Winters' Forgetfulness Clinic: Survival of the Fittest

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"Juliet, send in my eleven thirty."

"Yes, Doctor Winter."

Pamella Winters sat back, tapping her pen on her steno pad as Mrs. Janet Welch came through the door. She glanced around fearfully, looking at the small office as if expecting to see medieval torture devices. So many came into her office expecting to see alchemic devices or sci-fi equipment, but Doctor Winter was a woman of science.

She supposed, however, that when you saw a place called Doctor Winter's Forgetfulness Clinic, you had certain expectations beyond a board-certified therapist in a cloudy gray pantsuit.

Doctor Winter had seven, one for each day of the week, and Johan kept them pressed for her so they would look nice when she needed them.

Johan was dear, and Pamella was lucky to have her.

"So, Mrs. Welch," Doctor Winter began.

"Please, call me Janet. Everyone just calls me Janet."

"Very well. Janet, what brings you into my clinic today?"

"Well," Janet said, biting her lip as she seemed to rethink ever coming here, "something happened last week, something I'd really like to forget."

Doctor Winter smiled, "Well, that's why I'm here. Why don't you tell me about it?"

Janet shuddered, looking around as if she thought something might be waiting to get her. She was clearly a runner, her arms and what she could see of her legs looking tan and toned. She was wearing capri pants and a lovely blue sweater, her hair in a ponytail that seemed very comfortable to her. Her face, however, seemed anything but comfortable. Janet had clearly encountered something, and whatever it had been, it had rattled her badly.

"Wait, don't you need to put me under or something? Hypnotize me? Put me into a receptive state?"

Pamella smiled, "I certainly can if you'd like, but I don't have to. Can I offer you some tea? It's a special blend I make myself. It puts people at ease so they can tell me their problems."

"I don't really," Janet began, but seemed to think better of it as she nodded, "on second thought, yes, I'd love some."

Doctor Winter got up and poured the tea from an ordinary-looking pot on a hot plate. As she brought the cup, Janet looked into the smoke before blowing on the liquid and taking a sip. She made an appreciative noise as she took another, the liquid steamy but not quite as hot as she had believed. She sat on the edge of the couch with her legs drawn up, looking like a child who was afraid to tell her parents she's pregnant.

Doctor Winter invited her to begin, and Janet told her of her strange experience in the woods.

* * * * *

Janet stood upright from her stretch, filling her lungs with the crisp evening air.

She loved these early evening runs, the sun setting over her shoulder. As she began to jog through the parking lot, heading for the forest trail, she popped her earbuds in and hit play on her Running Playlist. Her sneakers sent up puffs of dust as she went from concrete to dirt, and Janet could hear the quiet evening conversations of birds and other small animals. They took to their heels when they saw her jogging toward them, and Janet saw a fat rabbit take off as it disappeared into the underbrush. She couldn't help but grin her Colgate whites at its cottontail.

"That's right," she thought as the rabbit ran, "make way for the apex predator."

Janet jogged around the small pond and shivered a little as she saw the steam rise from the water. It was cold this evening, and the surface of the water looked glassy as she watched the fish dart about their simple lives. Did they know there was a world above their translucent home? They must, she thought since too many of them likely got their reminder at the end of a hook that there were dangers up above. She rounded the corner of the pond and headed into the woods that made up the bulk of her run.

She stopped suddenly, though, looking around as she jogged in place. She had felt something, something she had never felt here before. She had run here for years, almost every day since moving to the area, and had never felt anything like this. Something had noticed her that was higher on the food chain than she was, something that saw her as meal.

Janet shrugged it off as she took to the trails. There was nothing bigger than a deer out in these woods, the only exception being the black bears that sometimes moved out here. They were mostly cowards, choosing to run rather than attack people, but Janet had never seen one up close. More than likely, Janet was just feeling a little tense after the posters she had seen on the way in, and she pushed herself on as she took to the trails.

Most people were on edge after the man had disappeared near here, but that had been a hiker. He had gone missing on the trails several miles from here, and there was no proof that he wasn't alive. The state park hiking trails linked up with the Appalachian trail in several places. Who was to say that he hadn't decided to simply extend his hike for several weeks? The fact that he'd told his wife that he was going out for a day hike seemed to refute this, but Janet put it out of her mind as the trees leaned crookedly over the path.

The trails were miles from here, and Janet didn't feel like she was in any danger running on a public jogging path.

As her jogging tunes kept her company, Brittany and Katie Perry pushing her on, Janet felt the woods pull close around her as she ran. She didn't feel uncomfortable under the watchful eyes of the trees. Quite the opposite, the trees were like arms that longed to hug, and Janet felt at ease the deeper onto the trail she went. She had forgotten all about the weird feeling she'd felt before. Now she was back in her element, her strong legs taking her forward as her earbuds pumped her ears with the invigorating sound of her favorite exercise tunes.

It began as a tickle on the back of her neck, the feeling something akin to a sunburn, and Janet found herself turning to look at the woods as the trees whipped past. It made her uncomfortable, and Janet put her hand out to run at the spot on the back of her neck more than once. She had thought, at first, that it might be a mosquito or a fly, but she never found anything as her fingers explored the space. She found her hand returning there again and again as she ran, and it made the crawly feeling in her stomach feel worse over time. She had tried to shove discomfort down, but it became harder and harder to justify the deeper she went.

Janet reminded herself that the trail was only three miles and that she was roughly a mile in.

As long as she kept moving, she had little doubt that she could outdistance anything that might be following her.

The path took her over a little bridge, and Janet stopped to look down at the water below as she covertly hit the pause button on her phone. The water was moving fast today, the little river sweeping the last of the fall leaves down with the current, but Janet let her eyes dart right and left as she swept the peripherals of her vision. She didn't dare remove her earbuds, wanting the illusion of being unable to hear what was chasing. Something crunched in the woods to her left, and Janet had to stop herself from looking over at it fretfully. Was it a deer? A squirrel? Maybe someone stalking her, getting ready to leap out and grab her?

She couldn't see anything in that direction, but when something rustled the leaves from the other side of the path, the side she had yet to go running down, Janet let her fear get the better of her. She swung her head in that direction, seeing a monster amongst the late autumn leaves for half a heartbeat, only to realize it was just a crow who had landed amongst them to root for breakfast. She laughed a little, feeling stupid as she realized she had let her paranoia get the better of her. The crow looked up curiously, startled by her laughter, and that made Janet laugh all the harder.

Then, something broke behind her, and she turned in a panic as her laugh died on her lips.

She slipped on the wet boards, the moss making them slick, and as she fell onto her bottom, she saw something hunkered in the woods. It was dark, blending in with the afternoon shadows as the sun set, and in her fear, she imagined some great beast on all fours. Its eyeless face was lost behind a black halo, its hands like scrabbling claws, and as she slipped on the slick boards, she could see it crawling towards her over the dead leaves and skeletal limbs that littered the forest floor.

Janet slid backward off the bridge, her feet finally finding purchase as she took off. She ran flat out, her terror high as she put as much distance between herself and whatever it had been as she could. Her rational mind tried to assert that it was probably just a dog, a small bear, but she was having none of it. She came to a fork, one way taking her towards the hiking trails and the other continuing on the running trail, and she took the right that would keep her on this trail. She was a mile in, but she couldn't turn around. Whatever it was had been in that direction, and Janet knew that if she wanted to make it out she needed to run away from it.

She had run almost half a mile in a panic before her lungs started to have trouble pulling in the cold air, and she doubled over on the trail.

As she tried to keep from bringing up her lunch, she looked at the suddenly claustrophobic trees that gathered around the path. No longer did they seem in a hugging mood. As the sun set behind them, the shadows creating angels where there had been none before, Janet could see the knobby fingers of skeletal hands. They were trying to grab her, to hold her down so the beast could get her, and as Janet tried to remember how to make her lungs work again, she heard the sound she had been dreading and spun in place.

The sound of limb cracking sent an icicle through her heart, and she stumbled a few steps before realizing she could see what had made the sound.

A deer had stepped out onto the path, clearly feeling safer than her in the waning afternoon. It had a magnificent rack of antlers, the points glistening wetly as it looked at her distrustfully. To this thing, Janet was the predator, and Janet took a few steps back as she gave the buck his space. She wondered if this was what she had seen earlier? Maybe she had startled it as she ran like a crazy person through the woods. Maybe it had just been trying to crop a little grass when she had startled it.

It ran suddenly, Janet watching it go, and that was when she saw it.

It had been no deer, after all.

Just a man in blue jeans and a black hoodie.

The hoodie covered his face, leaving his features a murky guess at best. His jeans were stained with mud and dirt and looked like they might stand up on their own if he took them off. He wore cheap tennis shoes that looked ready to fall apart, and they were muddy and stained up too much to tell their original color.

He had noticed her noticing him, and when his hand came out of the front pocket, it was holding a large hunting knife.

Janet suddenly remembered how to run, suddenly remembered how to pull air into her lungs, and screamed as she pelted off into the woods. She was lost to reason; she had no sense of where she was going. She only knew that wherever it was, it was away from the man with the knife. She ran into the woods, the trees grabbing at her as their knobbly branches scratched her arms and face. They tried to grab her clothes, but the expensive jogging gear was tight against her skin, and their clutching limbs slid off her. She kept looking behind her, trying to see if the man was following her, but in the early twilight and she couldn't see much. The sun would be down in about twenty minutes, and then she would be at the mercy of the woods by night. She had run the path a thousand times, thought she had known these woods so well, but now she was hopelessly lost, running for her life.

She chanced a look behind her and turned back in time to feel the root grab her foot.

She fell against the tree, knocking the wind out of herself as she went down amidst the dirt and leaves.

Her frantic feet churned up the hard ground, rolling her over and giving her a great view of the man as he stalked in, knife at the ready.

"Please," she wheezed out, her breath still gone, "please," she tried again, but she couldn't make anything come out.

Too winded to even beg for her life, how pathetic she must seem.

So much for being an apex predator.

The real predator had found her as she went about her day and now meant to gobble her up.

She could see the bottom of his mouth as a wide smile grew from it. He was stalking in, the knife still held down and at his side, and as she wiggled left to try and juke around him, he jumped to match her. It was all a game to him, an enjoyable distraction, but now it was over. Now, he meant to have his prize, whatever that might be.

As he loomed over her, pulling the knife back for a stab, Janet closed her eyes and prayed that he would just kill her and not decide to stretch out her terror.

They stood there for what felt like an eternity, Janet wanting him to get on with it when he sighed in ecstasy.

She felt something patter across her face, warm and thick but cooling quickly as it dappled her cheeks and eyelids.

She felt sick, her fears realized, but when she opened her eyes to peek, her left eye was covered by a film of red.

The man stood over her, his hoody now sporting three long rips in the chest as something pushed its way out. He had bled on her, his grin fading as he gasped out the last of his life. The knife fell from his limp fingers, sticking in the ground blade first, and as his legs tried to give way, he was pulled backward by something much larger.

The sun was setting behind the thing as it crouched amongst the trees, and Janet had to put a shaky hand up to see the creature. It looked like a toad, a massive toad with granite green skin, perched on its bottom as it drew the man towards it. It towered amongst the trees, fifteen or sixteen feet high, its arms long and spindly, its fingers tipped with cruel claws. It brought the man back to look him in the eye, smiling as it saw the fear it had wanted. The man was seizing, shaking as the blood dripped down those long claws, and when the creature leaned forward, Janet could see its mouth was full of similar jagged teeth. The crunch when it bit the man's arm off was accentuated by his wheezy scream as he shook violently. It ate his other arm, grinning as the blood ran and the hooded man cried out pitifully. Janet could only watch as the legs came off next, the creature finally ending the man's sobbing as it slid the dribbling torso into its mouth and crunched with relish.

It was licking its fingers when it finally noticed Janet, and its smile was no less frightful as its piss-yellow eyes fastened onto her.

"Don't worry," it said, its voice like angry bees caught in a jar, "I have no intention of eating you."

It slithered in, its body elongating as it drew very close to Janet. She could tell now that it had been hunching before, its body much bigger than she had thought, and the knowledge did little to quell her fear. Its face came right up until it blocked out the sun, those horrible eyes almost hypnotizing her as they stared right through her. Janet felt her bladder let go, her running pants holding the liquid in as they had held her sweat so many times before. She thought it would lie, thought it would eat her anyway, but instead, it just whispered to her in that hissy little voice, telling her what she had known all along, but never wanted to hear.

"I only eat predator, only desire the taste of those who have taken lives and reveled in their end. You, my dear, are no killer. Hop back to your warren, little rabbit. A true hunter moves amongst these woods."

Janet closed her eyes, the tears and snot running down her face in rivulets, and when she opened them again, she was alone.

* * * * *

"After that, I got up and managed to find the path before it got too dark. I expecting that thing to get me at any minute, but instead, I made it back to my car. I drove home and sat in the car till my husband came to ask if I was okay. I couldn't tell him about the creature or the man. I just told him something had spooked me in the woods. I've dreamed about that creature every night, though." she said, the tears falling into her cup as she looked into her reflection, "I haven't run since; something I love that helps me deal with stress like this, and I don't know if I ever will again."

Doctor Winter nodded, "You had a very traumatic experience, but," and when she said the word, she saw Janet tense as if someone's hand tightened a piano wire in her spine, "I think anyone would be a little rattled if they were the victim of a bear attack."

"A bear attack?" Janet said, almost dreamily.

"Yes, just as you told me. You were running and came upon a mother bear and her cubs. Black bears don't usually hurt people, but she was just protecting her babies. She chased you away, and you ran, scared out of your mind, as anyone would be. You ran all the way back to your car, and then you drove home. Your mind has made quite a lot of it, but if you're careful, you probably won't find yourself the target of a mother bear again."

Janet's face was slack, her mind reeling as it mulled over this new information.

Doctor Winter wrinkled her nose as Janet's mouth opened, and the tea spilled into the cup again.

This was her least favorite part of the exercise, but it was necessary.

"That's right. It was just a bear and her cubs. Poor old thing, I never even stopped to think of it like that. Thank you, Doctor Winter. I feel much better now."

Doctor Winter smiled, "That's the idea, my dear. I help my clients put things into perspective. I help them forget their fear and remember that nothing was really as bad as they remember."

Janet got up, handing Doctor Winter her cup. She looked a thousand times calmer than she had when she'd come in. This was the woman who'd gone running in the woods, Winter saw. This was the woman whose worldview had been shaken by her encounter with something far older and far darker than a mother bear and her whelps. Janet had seen something few people walked away from, and she was lucky to be alive.

She would never know how lucky she was, but that was the idea.

Doctor Winter waited for the door to snick closed before taking the cup to sink, where she kept her small green fish net. This part was delicate, and she didn't want to lose it. Reaching into the cabinet over the sink, she took out a mason jar and set it in the drain before beginning.

You only lost a few of them down the sink before you got smart about it.

Tipping the cup over the net, Doctor Winter poured out the tea as she strained the liquid, looking for the memory. The cup was heavier than it had been full, and Winter just knew there would be something juicy at the bottom. It joggled as she tipped the cup over, and a large, white, rubbery thing fell into the net with a wet slap. It was a little smaller than a fist, the center glowing a little as it winked like a firefly. Winter tipped it into the jar, pouring some tea on top of it before she put the lid on, lifting it up to have a look.

It was like ice as it floated at the midpoint, and if Doctor Winter looked closely, she could see the horrific face of the creature as it got in Janet's face and delivered its terrible proclamation.

Doctor Winter smiled as she put the jar in the cupboard, several other colorful balls of semi-liquid winking in the dark space. 

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I Talked to God. I Never Want to Speak to Him Again

     About a year ago, I tried to kill myself six times. I lost my girlfriend, Jules, in a car accident my senior year of high school. I was...